So as i'm drinking my whole milk with whole fat, i'm sitting here wondering how I gained so much weight so quickly. The problem is- I eat like i'm 16 but...i'm not 16 anymore. I gained 10 whole pounds in a matter of 30 days. I weigh a whopping 127 which for a 5 feet 0 inched size girl like myself- is obese. I weighed 117 last month. How did this happen? WELLLLLL....

Personally I blame retail. Retail stresses me out to a point where I comfort myself with food. I tell myself, I deserve food because I stood for long periods of time and got yelled at my super nasty customers who never learned how to behave in public. 

Number 2, I blame amazing parents and all the guys out there who tell me there's nothing wrong with me.  Are you effing kidding me guys? Don't tell me you love me and there's nothing wrong with me. Like HELLO. 

My coping mechanism are:

1) shopping excessively for makeup and clothes I can't fit into.

2) eating because I think I deserve it.

3)Sleeping on my full stomach.

I went from dressing up in cute clothes every day to over sized baggy t-shirts.

I look like a hood rat. ( a rat from the hood)